Why it’s probably going to take a reeaalllyy long time for me to get my period back…

As you can probably tell from the title of this post, this contains some girly content, so guys beware!  But it is definitely one of the most important posts I’ve ever written so I encourage you to read it!

I’m sure it’s no secret to you all that one of my big reasons for choosing recovery was to regain my natural menstrual cycle, which hasn’t ever been regular or normal to my knowledge (and hasn’t been present at all for like 2.5 years!).  I saw my midwife earlier this year, who suspected hypothalmic amenorrhea, but we decided to hold off on blood tests and give it some time to come back on its own.  I came to the realization that my diet and exercise habits were negatively affecting my fertility, and have made some serious changes over the past 2 months to get things back in order.

Let’s just say that some things have happened lately that have made me realize that it is going to take me far longer than suspected to get my period back.

If you remember a couple weeks back, I had some abdominal pains that I was almost certain were ovulation pains. (Yes I was diagnosed by google… we’ve all done it right??)  So I was anxiously awaiting the arrival of a monthly visitor sometime last week.  But the days came and went, and sadly, no period.

I was so disappointed, and so confused guys.  But then out of the blue, it just hit me… well maybe, JUST MAYBE, I managed to conceive on my very first cycle.  As I was taking the pregnancy test, I felt silly because I just knew it was such a long shot.  So you can bet my jaw dropped to the floor when two pink lines appeared on the test strip.  That’s right, friends… I AM PREGNANT!! 🙂

And that is just freaking marvelous.







I am absolutely over the moon about it!  Never in my dreams did I think it would happen this quickly.  Of course, it is still very early in the pregnancy (4-5 weeks now), but I just didn’t feel like trying to hide it for another month!

I was afraid to post this because I’m sure there’s people out there who would see conceiving a child while still recovering from disordered eating as a selfish thing to do.  But then I thought to myself, how many pregnancies (including my first!) were not even planned at all?  How many people become pregnant while dealing with mental illness, or while being a smoker, or while financially unstable?  And who are we to say that those people should not have children?  There is no one factor that can determine what kind of parent a person will be.  Obviously my body has showed some degree of readiness to bear a child, and I know in my heart that I am emotionally capable of another pregnancy.

BUT, with that being said… it will be ever so important that I am giving my body everything it needs so that the baby is well nourished.  I plan to do another post going into the whole pregnancy body image/ED recovery-related stuff, but for now I just had to get this big announcement out there!  I am so so so happy!!!

Can’t wait to share this journey with the blog world!  And thank you to all my readers for being so patient!




16 thoughts on “Why it’s probably going to take a reeaalllyy long time for me to get my period back…

  1. Oh.em.gee *jaw hanging* . Eeeeee!! *squeals of delight*
    I can’t believe it! Ohmygosh..I’m so happy for you Syd 🙂 . I totally did not expect this news once I started reading. I was thinking you probably were going to say you realized that your body needs lots of time to heal or something. And wow..this is amazing!
    My period has been MIA for going over 4 years..on 2 occasions now I’ve had an almost ‘fake’, unconvincing period which I’m assuming to be my body attempting a cycle(?). I’m praying it returns soon.

    • Haha I gotcha didn’t I?? 😉 It sounds like your hormones are starting to stabilize too! Hope it comes for you soon! In the meantime – lots of rest and lots of food! Thank you!!

  2. A massive congratulations, you certainly got me with twist. I wasn’t expecting a positive ending! Don’t for a second feel guilty, you will give yourself and your new precious baby everything you need. Best wishes for the next 10 months – hope it all goes very smoothly.

  3. Wow! I love your blog, but never have commented! I’m recovering from anorexia & have put on close to 20 pounds in 2 months, but still awaiting my period. My husband & I are dying for a baby, so like you that was my main drive to get healthy. I got tears reading this because it gives me the hope I needed! I was thinking it was impossible right now, but who knows it could happen to me as well! Thanks so much for posting this, you’ve made my day & congrats 🙂

    • Thanks so much for reading Amie! I am so happy that my blog has been a source of hope for you – that is one of the most rewarding aspects of being a blogger! And I am even happier to hear that you are choosing to take charge of your recovery and fertility! I think it’s important to remember that everyone’s situation is unique – everyone’s body needs a different amount of time to make the hormonal changes. But it sounds like you are on the right track with the weight gain. The best I can recommend is lots of rest, lots of food, patience, and love! I wish you luck with trying to conceive & I would love to hear from you when that happy day does come 🙂

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