I just have to give a big thanks to yoga for pulling me out of my funk that I’ve been in the last couple days. (Yeah, sorry about the negative nancy post yesterday… but hey sometimes I gotta be real!)
Yesterday was an overall terrible day that ended on a poor note of stepping on the scale. Why? I just couldn’t take the unknown anymore. Curiosity got the best of me. I was spending all day wondering how much I weighed. Instead of just trying to ignore and not care about it, I chose to know my weight and accept it. I won’t lie – I didn’t like the numbers. But after some sleep and a good yoga class, the numbers don’t seem to bother me nearly as much.
For all you MinnieMauders out there (or those who are familiar with the method), I am aware that I should not exercise during recovery. I talk about my reasons for continuing to do light yoga in My Recovery Plan.
And today, my eyes were opened to yet another wonderful benefit of yoga – the state of mental rest and spiritual enrichment that it provides. I finally had that “aha” moment where yoga just clicked for me.
Every day we start by acknowledging our intention for our practice – a “goal” so to speak. We affirm that intention to our minds and then seal it to our hearts. We reaffirm this intention after we have completed our practice. In the past I have chosen happiness, peace, balance, and fertility as intentions for my yoga practices. Today, a new one came to mind… self-acceptance. To simply be, and be okay with it.
Once I sealed that intention to my heart, I just knew it was right. I had by far the best yoga class I’ve ever had – I breathed through the poses with ease and reached new levels of flexibility. At the end of the class, I felt fulfilled. I accepted myself. It was glorious. I hope I can carry that intention with me throughout the day!
Before, I was unsure whether or not I should be doing yoga – but now I am confident that is exactly what I need right now. I am very grateful for how yoga keeps me grounded and opens my heart and mind so that I am able to learn more about my self.