I initially thought I should start by telling my story but have come to realize that’s not what’s best for me. I think focusing on the present and future will help me move in a positive direction and lead to an ultimately better outcome. Once I feel like I am recovered, I will share and reflect upon my story and my past.
Since I don’t have any pressing medical issues and I am not clinically “underweight” I will not be using the assistance of any doctors, RDs, or therapists. In other words, my recovery team is just me, my husband, and any potential readers who may eventually stumble across my site. I know it will be harder this way, but we’re not really in a place financially to be paying a therapist.
- Unrestricted eating. What you want, when you want, in any quantity. Do not allow yourself to feel restricted at all. It goes even further to say that you must meet certain calorie minimums based on your age, weight, and sex.
- No weighing or measuring.
- No exercise.
The basic theory is that everyone has a weight set point, and that if you respect your body’s hunger signals without restraint, you will naturally gain weight until you reach that point. Once reached, you can continue to eat without restriction and you won’t gain weight. I know. It contradicts pretty much everything I learned as a nutrition student. But the scientific evidence is extraordinary and I’m gonna give it a shot!
Here is how I currently feel about the three aspects of MinnieMaud (MM) recovery:
- Unrestricted eating – fine. However, I know this will be gradual for me. I have no problem eating to my hunger cues but it’s the types of food that I will struggle with. I still have a tendency to cling to “safe” meals that I have deemed as being healthy. But over the past 3 days I have been able to loosen up on my rules – hopefully this will continue to improve. But as far as the minimums go – I am VERY uneasy about counting calories to ensure I meet those minimums. I will do a separate post on that topic soon since it has really been weighing on my mind.
- Ehh I really want to weigh myself, but I’m going to do my best to resist. I can’t simply throw away my scale because my husband wants to use it. And he paid for it. (We’re cheap, ok?) I’ve never taken measurements, but I am a 24-7 body-checker – that is something I can work on.
- Kill me now. No exercise is like no oxygen. I will go crazy. But I know how ridiculously crucial this part is so I’m going to do my best given my current situation. I will still go to the super easy yoga class a few times a week, mostly so my toddler can get some playtime with other kids. I will also take her swimming because the girl is a fish. I’ll play with her outside. But no more running, no more lap swimming, no more weight lifting, no more spin class, no more pushing myself through difficult yoga poses. THIS IS SO HARD!
As I mentioned in my previous post I will also be reading 7 Habits to help me change my way of thinking. I will also have the support of my main man Jesus Christ whenever things get poopy. I am uneasy and nervous but hopeful and excited at the same time. I’m having to let go of things from my past that determined who I was… and now I’m ready to make ME the one who’s in charge of who I am!